Yep – that’s certainly been true of late – life has been… interesting – to say the least.
I’ve been in a little slump lately – just in my personal outlook on things – not depressed, but a bit strung out, anxious and/or a little “blah”. Some up’s and down’s over the last month or so – as well as some times earlier this year.
I guess the “core” of this is the “C” word – no, not that one – but CHANGE.
Without turning this post into a whinge fest, or as public display of personal thoughts/feelings (too much) – I wanted to just “blog” some of it – for future reference – and as a cathartic way of “getting it out”.
I’m usually a pretty keen advocate of “change”, I’ve changed jobs many, many times – and moved house annually for a while. It was just a way of keeping life “on the go”. Not a control freak – but I was definitely piloting my own ship – I was in control of the course ahead.
Certainly, the IT industry changes – and continues to do so. Just “tech” in general changes all the time – part of the reason I enjoy what I do – always something NEW.
My life journey in general was on a fairly smooth & predictable path for the first time – I’d found my “niche” in work/life balance – some great friends – and was pretty much “happy” – no changes required, please !
But – over the last 12 months, I’ve had some significant life changing events, none of which was expected – or even anticipated – and yet to play out to it’s full extent, in some form or another.
I had a friend who suggested I read the book “who moved my cheese” – I think I still might. However, I think much of that is related to work/professional life – which is actually pretty much in check.
Maybe part of the feeling lately is that the changes ahead/underway were not my doing – was out of my control – and there’s some sort of “denial, anger, fear, sadness, acceptance” stages – or something like that. And, I’m still “processing” – ever closer to acceptance.
Just “time” is the key – time to process, time for things to pass, time for matters to unfold further. Time is in short supply though ! Days where I’ve felt like I’m running, and can’t keep up – juggling too many “balls in the air”.
Suffice to say, I’ve had a bit of a tough year (2008) – and have been a bit of a prick to some folk of late – in what I say and do. Sorta lashing out, you might say.
And, the irony is that it’s my mates who help – and it’s them that I need the most. So don’t want to piss ‘em off, and lose any of them !
Therefore, another reason for this post is to say SORRY to those that I’ve been a smart-arse, cynical, grumpy, snide, mean or just plain rude – the twitter crew will know what I’m talking about !
If I’ve been a pain-in-the-butt, or “high maintenance” of late, then sorry again – don’t give up on me !
Life is OK – don’t get me wrong – just some interesting times – now and ahead – all of which will become clear in a short while.
Grumpy Wookie is not really THAT grumpy – just a little frazzled – maybe it could be called “a bad hair day” – that’s enough to make any wookie a little grumpy.
And as Yoda said – “Do. Or do not. There is no try"…
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